If this is what we learn through his condition, then dare I say: It’s worth it? In this journey if we are learning more about Christ, about His gracious mercy, His faithfulness, His loving fathering towards us, and we grow in our faith, then that is to the glory of God!
In our hard circumstances, we have two choices. We can choose to be bitter, harden our hearts, and be angry with the world, or we can choose to allow God to display his marvelous works through us. I want to be a testimony to God’s grace, mercy, healing.
It’s hard when I hear Toby ask why God doesn’t heal him here on earth. I sit with him int hat grief, but then we move on to some gentle reminders of how he has been healed in small ways such as:
- Learning to eat by mouth
- Not needing a ventilator during the day
- No longer having a feeding tube.
- Speaking even with a trach
- His positive attitude
- His courage
- His perseverance
These are displays of God’s glory and works through Toby.